You may have noticed (or not) that it's been pretty quiet on my blog for the past month. Well, after the 30x30x30 birthday challenge, I was feeling a little burnt out on the posts.  Don't get me wrong, it was a phenomenally rewarding project, but I was simply exhausted! Additionally, I just experienced the busiest and most important month of my career. I was in charge of running my company's inaugural conference in NY.  Picture: 400 people, 23 speakers/companies, multiple tracks, over two days.  It turned out really well and the partners of my company thanked me with a very generous bonus.

Anyway, point is, I was busy and tired but now I'm not.

So I want to talk about climbing again. I know, it's been TOO LONG.  Art, photography, and the birthday challenge have dominated the blog for most of 2014.  But let's not forget my #1 passion, which is still climbing.

On Saturday, Mollie and I went out to Malibu Creek State Park to learn top rope anchor building.  This has been on my to-do list for a very long time. I have been climbing for 3.5 years, so I'm embarrassed to admit that it took this long.  In the past I always felt more comfortable having someone else take care of the technicalities.  However it got to the point where I simply wasn't climbing outside anymore and felt myself trusting others less and less. It was time to learn the systems myself.

It was not the best morning to go climbing.  Mollie and I were both tired and possibly a little hungover from the previous night's wine tasting with friends.  We met Steve at the climbing gym at 6:00am and headed to Malibu Creek.  Not only was it cloudy and very early, but there was a fine, misty drizzle in the park. The only positive was that this weather kept most other climbers at bay; when we arrived at Planet of the Apes wall (aptly named because it was host to the 1968 film with the same name), there was only one guy there getting set up for a class later in the day.

We wound our way up the left side of the wall (see image below) and then up to the top of the cliff.  It's a very easy approach from the car (20-30 minutes with only a couple short, steep hills) and then a quick 2 minute hike to the top of the wall from the base.  It is an ideal location to learn anchor building. There are 6-8 sets of bolts for anchors, each one slightly different.  We spent about 1.5 hours going over how to safely tie in with our personal anchor system, how to tie the correct knots, where to put carabiners, and general "dos and don'ts" of anchor building.  I started off feeling very nervous at the prospect of our safety being in my hands (and in Mollie's hands).  Luckily we had a good teacher who made sure we really understood the system. And we did understand it. And ultimately I felt empowered by the class.

When it came time to climb, and luckily we did have time for that, I realized I never felt so secure as I did climbing on my own anchors.  The picture on the right is me on "Planet of the Apes" line, the same route that the guy in the picture above is climbing. Steve climbed it first, so he had the opportunity to really test out my anchors, but then I jumped on.  I climbed on my own anchor and didn't die! The fate of my life was in the quality of my own anchor system.  Yes, I had a belayer that I trusted. And yes, it's possible that equipment could fail.  But usually when people are injured while climbing it is because of human error.

After we climbed on my anchors, we moved the rope over to Mollie's anchors and climbed on that line. I actually made it to the top of that route and when I got to the anchors, I experienced a very interesting feeling. Previously when I would get to the top of a climb, I would view the anchors with unease and distrust, mainly because I had NO idea what I was looking at. I couldn't tell if they were set up correctly, and that is very unnerving.  On Saturday, I experienced a feeling of trust in the system, and it really made climbing that much more fun. 

I've talked before about safety in climbing, and even wrote a lengthy post on Tito and Thoughts on Un-Safety. But what does "safe" even mean when you are engaging in a sport that is "inherently dangerous?" This is a term you will see on any climbing gym waiver, or on climbing brand website disclaimers (see Metolius's website), or through any outdoor guiding company's waiver. They aren't embellishing the danger or trying to scare you into acting safe.... climbing is NOT SAFE. But what can we do, as people who love the sport, about that? How can we knowingly engage in an activity where we are constantly putting our health and life at risk? 

I found an interesting article online called 5 Ways to Die Climbing.  The great thing about this article is that it starts off by saying "most climbing accidents and fatalities are preventable and most can be directly attributed to human error." I agree with this wholeheartedly.  Then the article goes on to list the top 5 ways to die as: Leader Falls, Loose Rock/Rockfall, Climbing Unroped (Soloing), Rappelling, and Weather/Hypothermia.  In addition to the fact that the article doesn't cite any studies or reports to support these claims, my main problem with the article is that is immediately undermines it's previous statement by placing implying that these are "uncontrollable" situations.    

I prefer to focus on the statement that touts accidents can usually be accounted back to human error, bcause doing so generates saftey-conscious climbers.  Error doesn't make us bad people, but as humans we are flawed and we do make mistakes.  Let's look at these 5 ways to die with a more critical eye. 

• Falling can be done with minimal risk, especially if you: A) practice falling often and in a somewhat controlled environment; B) learn when it is appropriate to risk a fall; and, C) learn to recognize when to lower from a climb if the risk of falling is too dangerous.  Arno Ilgner teaches classes on safe falling techniques.
• Next up is Solo climbing, which is a conscious decision made by the climber. They are knowingly putting themselves in a situation where if they fall, injury or death is probable. Therefore it is 100% controllable in the sense that you have a choice not to engage in this activity at all.  I know Alex Honnold looks really cool, but take time to evaluate the risk/reward ratio for YOU.
• Injury or death from rappelling is almost always due to human error. If you would like more information, this is an excellent and comprehensive article on What Can Go Wrong While Rappelling.
• Weather/hypothermia... well, I think this depends on the situation. If you see the clouds coming in and decide you want to get in a quickie on the wall, then you should expect to have to deal with the consequences.  Weather can be extremely spontaneous though, so I feel I should give this item some leeway.  
• Loose Rock/rockfall is another one that I think gets some leeway because your level of control is limited.  However, this article claims that there are preventative steps you can take as the climber.
  

So, I ask again: How can we knowingly engage in an activity where we are constantly putting our health and life at risk? 

• Take the classes so you are informed and knowledgeable.  Your local climbing gym can teach you to top rope belay, lead belay, and learn proper climbing techniques. REI and other outdoor guiding schools can teach you anchor building and other outdoor safety requirements.   
  
• Find a mentor who can guide you and answer questions when they come up (and they should come up often if you are really trying to learn).
  
• After you've learned the correct safety requirements, practice setting up your anchors over and over again until you could do it "with your eyes closed in the dark", as my guide on Saturday recommended.
  
• Check all your equipment before climbing and replace it when the time comes: either as recommended by the manufacturer or prior to that if you see wear and tear.  Your harness, rope, carabiners, trad gear (etc.) are not built to last forever.
  
• Tell someone where you are going to climb that day (ahem, let's all learn from 127 Hours).  
  
• Be alert and aware of your surroundings. That includes weather and loose rock! 
  
• Don't climb on someone else's anchors, unless you have had a chance to check it out and feel that it is a "safe" setup (and even then, you don't know how well-maintained their equipment is).
  
• Always, always, always safety-check yourself and your partner. Once that's done, do it again. And there is no shame at looking down at your harness mid-climb to make sure you are still double-backed (yes, I do that often).  Verbally acknowledge your safety check with your partner. Don't assume they checked you. 

There are many more steps you can take to be safe on a regular basis, but these are the big ones... and ultimately you should have fun too.  Prepare as much as possible, and then allow yourself to enjoy the sport. I think most people, not applicable to adrenaline junkies, will feel more free to enjoy climbing when they have done as much as possible to create a safe environment.

Now, just for fun, I want to share some pictures I took of an unsafe anchor system that was setup next to us at Planet of the Apes wall.  Can you see all the errors?  

Lately I have been feeling antsy with the thought of a leading a life that is predetermined by society. Almost everyone I know is a complete slave to the system: Mortgages, working til I'm 70, glued to technology. C'mon, UGH. This is such a depressing thought. I just want to live on a farm and grow my own food and raise chickens and goats and live off the land.

Okay, perhaps I'm having an almost-30, existential crisis.  But on a more serious note, my friend, Mollie, and I spent some time discussing the concept of going Off-The-Grid (OTG) and what that would mean as a life choice. We discussed realistic avenues to make going OTG feasible. I think it would actually require quite a bit of planning. Basically, simplifying your life is not a simple process. Most of us would probably have no idea how to live off the land and lead a self-sustaining lifestyle. I love the idea of growing my own food, but I can barely keep a cactus alive. Not a good indication of my ability to keep a whole garden or farm.

Well regardless of whether going OTG is an actually possibility in my future, it's nice to dream about the options out there. So for this post I dug through the Grid and found some homes that would be lovely choices. Some aren't necessarily 100% "gridless" - meaning many of the houses still have electricity and running water - but at the very least they strive to hit that mark.  Most are eco-friendly and located away from the normal hustle-and-bustle of the big city. Anyway, I hope you enjoy and feel a little inspired to determine your own fate in life.

I'm late on this topic, I know. Everyone had something to say about Tito's death (if you don't know what I'm referring to, more details here)  But safety, or more appropriately, un-safety, is such an important topic that I want to address it anyway.

One thing I've learned from climbing and life and Andrew Bisharat:  There is no such thing as safe. This doesn't just apply to adventure sports or adrenaline-junkies. This applies to literally everything in life. Relationships, financial security, etc. Nothing is 100% safe. I'm not suggesting we go through life constantly assuming the worst, but that we respect the fragile and dynamic nature of life. Deep, right? 
  

Tito Traversa died because he was handed a rack of quickdraws that were incorrectly assembled.  It's reasonable to assume that he did not carefully inspect his equipment. 

The picture to the left illustrates incorrect draws (left) and correct draws (right). Note that on the left side, the carabiner only passes through the black rubber loop, and not the sling/dogbone (the fabric part, which is tested to withstand a certain amount of force).  When Tito fell, the weight and force caused the black rubber piece to snap, which happened on multiple draws, and he fell to the ground.  The black rubber piece is simply there to keep the carabiner from moving around in the sling.

Bisharat discusses that we need to not "make this into something that it's not."  This is not about reckless parenting skills or whether or not we should let young children climb.  This is not about pointing fingers.  This is about the inherent un-safety of life.  This is about the fact that we are human beings and human beings make mistakes. This is about a shitty set of circumstances that led to the end of a young boy's life.

I've seen a lot of crazy things happen climbing indoors and outdoors.  Crazy in the sense that someone could have easily died or did actually get hurt.

• I've forgotten to double-back the leg loops on my harness. Luckily, everything was fine and no one got hurt.
  
• I've witnessed a climber get stranded on an outdoor wall while rappelling down post-climb.  He was stuck on a ledge for 2-3 hours while other climbers had to help retrieve the rope so he could finish his descent.  Luckily, everything was fine and no one got hurt.
• I've witness and assisted a belayer who got distracted and forgot to put her climber on belay.  He was climbing indoors at his limit and I had to run over and put him on belay only moments before he fell.  Luckily, everything was fine and no one got hurt.
• I have dropped my climbing partner when he was climbing a lead route indoors.  I was distracted and will never let it happen again.  Luckily, it was only a few feet, everything was fine, and no one got hurt.

• I've witness strangers climbing outside and looping their rope through a bolt in the rock.  If the individual fell, the bolt would most likely cut through the rope like butter.  I didn't see what happened, and maybe nothing happened.  But ultimately, I have no idea if everything was fine or if anyone got hurt.
• I've heard the first-hand story of someone falling outside from 80-feet all the way to the ground.  This happened because of miscommunication.  Everything is fine, now. But at the time he was very seriously injured.  Very luckily, he didn't die.
• Finally, many people know of John Long's injury at Rockreation Climbing Gym in Los Angeles. This man, one of the original Stonemasters of climbing, had gone decades without an injury of this magnitude. He fell 20 feet from the top of the route because he had forgotten to finish tying his knot. He got hurt very badly, but he is alive.  Hopefully, with much physical therapy, everything will eventually be fine.

A lot of these are simple mistakes that occurred because of miscommunication or distractions.  As Andrew wrote "No one goes out to a sport-climbing crag carrying the acceptance that they may die that day. No one." Shit happens. The only thing we can do is religiously double-check ourselves, our partners, and our equipment.

Climbing is exhilarating.  But it's also inherently dangerous. It is irresponsible to be a climber and not completely understand the risk associated with the sport.

My thoughts continue to go to Tito and his family.  It was an devastating tragedy. All we can do now is try to learn from what happened and apply it to our everyday practices.

This post is dedicated to my friend Mollie, who always reminds me to double-check each other before every climb and insists on using all the appropriate climbing commands.  Thank you, Mollie!